Okay, so that last post sounded kind of pouty. In an effort to resist completely mel-ing out, I’m going to be honest about one thing concerning this experience—it truly has been an exercise in depending on God instead of people (“people” being “Craig” in this situation). That’s one of the things I’ve been praying for, and God has answered that prayer. But there’s a funny thing about praying for things like patience, refined character, or a deeper dependence on God—when God answers, it hurts!! Why can’t there be a painless way of getting those things? I guess when your hope starts growing into the wrong thing, it hurts to have it ripped away.
Anyway, I felt like I needed to acknowledge the positive side, because it’s been very real and very cool. Painful, but cool. Doesn’t mean I’m not still sad and it sure doesn’t mean I’m not still struggling, but God is faithful. He’s cool like that :) Maybe when Craig comes home I’ll appreciate him a little more and need him a little less. That would be sweet.
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